Hello faithful readers, it's been awhile since I last blogged and for that I do apologize; but not having any real stable internet until just now kind of made that impossible. However I am back and with that, I am looking to get back into the swing of things and since we are in a new year, I figured what better blog topic than Resolutions but in an efed styled sense.
We all know what Resolutions are; they are something we all give ourselves to try and follow all year and sometimes we see it through and sometimes we don't. But it never fails we give them to ourselves and this year I've done the same and thus here are my Efed Resolutions this year and they are in no real particular order.
1: To Keep it Stress Free:
For those who know what happened two years ago, they know that I was under alot of self induced stress due to this little hobby of ours. I was not a very pleasant person to be around and frankly I hated myself for it. The littlest of things set me off and I let anyone around me know it to. From losing a close match to believing I was 'purposely being held back'. Yeah it wasn't pretty and it took a some what self imposed exile to get my head clear and free of all the negativity I had cast around myself.
Flash forward to the middle part of 2014 and I was back in the thick of things in my home fed of FFW and I started to see myself doing good things; I won some, I lost some... but here's the kicker; no matter what, I was enjoying it. Win or lose, I was having fun. Why is that? Because I gave myself the 'keep it stress free' rule. I'd do my rps, post them, read the results, then ask for feedback win or lose to see where I could improve. I never slammed the laptop closed, I never snapped and lashed out. I smiled and even found myself falling in love with the game again. All because I stopped taking it so damned serious all the time; that and I found other ways to handle my free time with Yugioh being the main one that and playing Pokemon nuzlock runs. It's the simplest of things but hey it has worked for me and I plan to keep it that way.
I know I won't win every single match I'm in; because no one is untouchable in this game, myself included. It's just learning what works, what doesn't work, and keeping on with keeping on. I talk with people when I can and I always keep it civil and never once have I yelled or snapped over a loss. Hell I've recently gotten back to just shooting the shit with one of the people I consider to be my 'rival' in Johni. If this was real wrestling, he'd be my Rock and I'd be his Austin. Or I'd be his Bret and he'd be my Shawn, without all the backstage bullshit.
This year I'm going to keep it stress free by doing what I've been doing. Efeds are just a hobby, it's a game... and like all games, you can't win em all.
2: Make Memorable Moments:
This one is kind of up in the air because it's not up to me what others would consider memorable. Something I'd consider a memorable moment, others might forget about in a week's time. Others that found to be the best thing ever, I'd go 'I don't get it'. But there are somethings that memorable and can never be taken away from those involved. For me that was "Paper Champions", hi, Johni.
You ask anyone from the EWC days, they'd tell you that "Paper Champions" was one of my 'memorable' moments where I shocked people with just how deep I could go with my writing, in both a promo level and C/D level. It was one of those moments that some people want to see me reach again and that was part of my issue a few years ago, I put the pressure on me to try and get there too fast. Nothing was organic, I'd try stupid shit after stupid shit. Nothing made sense but now I've slowed it down and I'm looking to get back there in an organic level. I'd like to think that this year with my Jodie Gray character I could get another "Paper Champions" moment but only time and the judges in FFW will tell on that one.
But there are other kinds of memorable moments; matches, feuds, storylines; all these things can be memorable in their own rights and again I'm going to be trying to do these things all year long but make it organic, not rushed or forced.
Now these are just a few of me efed resolutions and I want to thank you all for reading this blog. Now my question for all of you reading. Do you have any efed resolutions of your own? If so tweet me them and we can discuss them. Until next time, this has been a random musing.
-Jer
